DEEP THOUGHTS

I WAS BORED AND WAS THINKING, WHY DO THINGS ALWAYS GOT THE OPPOSITE WAY.

LIKE WHEN YOU ARE WAITING FOR A CAB AND THERE IS NEVER ONE AROUND AND WHEN YOU AIN'T TRYING TO TAKE ONE, THEY ALWAYS SEEM TO APPEAR OUT OF NO WHERE.

OR WHEN YOU IN A FREAKING RUSH...THE TRAIN TAKES FOREVER TO REACH YOUR STOP AND HAS MANY DELAYS BEFORE YOU REACH YOUR FINAL DESTINATION. 

AND WHEN YOU ARE NOT IN A RUSH TO GET HOME, CAUSE YOU ALREADY KNOW WHAT THE F*&*(^ IS GOING TO HAPPEN WHEN YOU GET THERE, YOU FREAKING GET THERE TOO FAST.

WHAT ABOUT THE DAYS WHEN YOU WAITING FOR THAT PERSON TO CALL AND THEY NEVER DO AND WHEN YOU DON'T WANT TO SEE OR HEAR FROM THEM, THEY FUKING POPOUT OF NOWHERE.

DO YOU EVER WONDER, MAYBE WE GIVE OURSELVES MIXED SIGNALS OR IF WE ARE RECEIVING THE WRONG SIGNS?


IT JUST DAWNED ON ME....THAT CERTAIN THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON. I BUMPED INTO MY COUSIN ON THE BUS YESTERDAY AND SHE SAID SHE HAD WENT TO THE CEMETARY WHERE MY BROTHER IS AT....WHICH IS LIKE REALLY CLOSE TO HOME.....MAYBE THERE IS A REASON WHY I WAS BROUGHT AROUND THIS AREA.

BUT IS IT SO THAT I CAN VISIT THE CEMETARY MORE OFTEN, SINCE I ALWAYS MADE EXCUSES WHEN I LIVED FAR AWAY FROM IT, OR IS IT BECAUSE MY BROTHER WANTED TO BRING ME CLOSER TO HIM....I DON'T KNOW...IT SOUNDS WEIRD....BUT I AM VERY SKEPTICAL ABOUT THINGS AND BELIEVE IN MIRACLES AND SIGNS FROM OUT OF THE ORDINARY.



THERE IS THIS DREAM, THAT I KEEP HAVING....AND IN THAT DREAM HE KEEPS TELLING ME THAT SOME DAY I WILL KNOW THE TRUTH. LIKE WHAT DOES THAT MEAN, WHAT IS THE TRUTH AND HOW WILL I KNOW IT? IF HE IS NOT HERE TO LET ME KNOW. I WONDER.

ARE DREAMS REALLY TELLING US THE TRUTH OR IS IT JUST TELLING US WHAT WE WANT TO HEAR OR SEE? WHEN GOING TO COLLEGE, ONE OF MY PROFESOR'S TOLD THE CLASS TO BECAREFUL WHAT WE WISH, FOR WISHFUL THINKING IS WRONG, BECAUSE WHAT WE WISH FOR IN THE BACK OF OUR MINDS, ALWAYS COMES OUT TRUE IN OUR DREAMS, BUT MAY NOT REALLY BE WHAT WE WANTED TO HAPPEN IN REALITY.

WHATS THE POINT? THE POINT IS IF YOU WISHED SOMEONE WAS DEAD BECAUSE YOU WERE UPSET WITH THEM, IN YOUR DREAMS, YOUR WISH WILL BE SATISFIED, BUT WHEN YOU WAKE UP AND FIND OUT THAT PERSON DIED. YOU WILL REGRET EVER WISHING THAT THOUGHT TO BEGIN WITH. GET THE POINT?