Butterfly

Butterfly
Butterfly

Thursday, August 19, 2010

The Name Butterfly!

I often get the question, why do I call myself Butterfly or where did the name Butterfly come from.  Well it all started like this.  I read a book called the Life Cycle of a Butterfly to my daughter when she was younger and that story triggered an emotional event for me.  A Butterfly is first a caterpillar and a caterpillar has to die before a Butterfly is born. 

I was once a twin and now I am what they would call a surviving twin.  Normally surviving twins are separated at birth through illness or one being stillborn etc or later on in life through an illness etc.  In my occassion it was through death.  My twin and I were very close and sometimes....well the majority of the times inseparable.  Events happened in our lives and we went through our ups and downs and sibling rivalries but we were still close.   At age 19 things took a turn in my life.  My twin passed away, not sure whether he had commited suicide or he was murdered because we really never found out the truth and too many stories were told.  However that is all in God's hands now and even if we searched for the truth...it will not bring him back.  So for me my life with my twin were my caterpillar years.  The day my twin passed away...a part of me died but another part of me came to life and that is why I call myself Butterfly.

It was hard learning to live on my own without my other half at the begining of living the single twin life "the surviving twin".  Thank God he gave my mom 6 other children besides us because they were able to lift my spirits and keep me going to appreciate life more than ever now. 

Well just wanted to answer the curiosities of why the name Butterfly. 

To be continued...